I know, its been a while since I've blogged.. just really haven't felt like it.. mainly cuz I've gotten so addicted to Facebook's game Chefville. That's all i think about.. lol..
But things are still the same around here. i still don't have a job.. and i really don't want one.. i'm tired of working. and busting my ass for nothing... I've told my roomie that i have put some in, but i lied. i did last week to Payless, but even if i got it , how would i get there?
But i keep telling myself that i have to get on the ball and really start looking and putting in applications, cuz i know that i can't just sit around here and not work. i need money...
I got food stamps to feed me, but i need cash! and its getting down to the point that if i can't find a job, i'm going to start stripping... well, that's what Tyrone told me to do.. lol.. and my friend Mike told me that he's going to start a website for me that won't show my face, but i can do things on there, and make some money.. but i told him only if he's in it with me.. lol.. (even though, i'd rather have Tyrone with his sexy self..lol.. ) Oh, and he even changed my name to Roxie, but Tyrone said i should be called Big Juicy... lol.. which i sorta like better.. lol..
But i don't think anyone would watch me on line or to strip... i don't see how men do it, or how some say they like big women.. i don't know.. lol.. i guess to each their own.. lol.. but i just can't get myself to do that cuz i would feel bad or my morals would be bad.. lol.. but if it brought in money.. hey... lol..
Well, my roomies girlfriend is having another baby... chunk is only 11 months old, and she's 21 and pregnant again.. which i sort of had a inkling that she was, because since she's been here, our periods have been in sync..she would have her's first and i would be on mine a few days later..but recently i just got off mine, and i noticed that there weren't any pads (which she uses) in the garbage.. so i kinda knew then that she might be...
I just don't see how your that young, and you don't want to do anything with your life but make babies and work at Dunkin Doughnuts?? and this now makes his 11th child! which she thinks is 10 but she don't know about that bow legged crackhead he screwed at the building who is claiming her baby is his and will go after him for child support.
But she is so young and has her whole life ahead of her, and she just wants to be a baby maker ? and then she was telling me that since he wants to have 2 babies with her, that he's going to stay with her and not be leaving her like how he did his other sons mama.. ummm... he'll do it if he needs to.. cuz dam, he needs to train her in everything.. she can't really cook, (she's getting better), she can't drive, (which she is learning) she don't check his pockets of his clothes when she washes them..(the other day she washed his phone that was in his pockets that she was supposed to check) ...so he has to train her to do all this.. why would you want a girl when you can have a woman that knows how to do things right? she don't even wash their dishes after they eat.. just leaves them in the sink... i don't mind doing them, but dam, at least attempt to do them...
Don't get me wrong, i do like her alot, she's old enough to be my daughter! but there are some things about her that get to me and that is the majority of it...
But he really isn't ready for this relationship with her... because he's still sleeping with me. which gets me that i haven't been knocked up by him yet! man! i would love to be pregnant again, which i know i can't afford it, but i want a boy so bad, and he knocks out boys! he only has like 2 daughters that i know of... but seriously, he really needs to get a vasectomy, but when you mention that to him, he blows a fit.. lol..
But i am happy for them, even though it might sound like i'm not. as long as i still get my time with him i'm fine.. she will never find out.. and i hate to say it , but i don't feel bad about doing this to her. because i know that he's not ready for no committed relationship... hell, she was telling me that while he was staying at his mother's house for 2 days alone, she seen in his phone that he was texting some other girl to come over to his mom's house....so he's texting and talking to other girls and probably doing more while he is with her.. but i know that he's not ready for this relationship, so that is why i do it , besides the feelings that i have for him..
but i hope that she has a girl this time.. he wants another boy... smh... lol
This New Year is going to be a new one for me... i am meaning that i am done with all this junk food that i am eating and i'm going to start going for walks even if its in the snow... because I've been eating like a dam cow lately and i'm feeling it.. walking up my basement stairs and walking to the computer, i get winded. and that's never happened . when i was upstairs with my roomie we were wrestling and i was so winded that i had to stop and he was like "that's cuz your out of shape" and i'm like " i know" but this new year, i'm going to be so strict on myself that its not going to be nice. if i have to walk up and down the stairs to do the exercise..i'm going to do it.. i even looked up on YouTube yoga lessons for beginners to try to lose weight that way.. and i'm going to look up even more tonight... i'm going to look up online about what foods i can and can't eat especially with me being diabetic. cuz I've been feeling pretty bad lately with that.
So all those dam chocolate chips i bought for cookies and muffins, i either have to make before the end of the year, or give them to somebody.. lol.. but i did promise my roomie's girl some peanut butter cookies.. lol..
But otherwise, everything else has been the same.. OH! i had a big surprise the other day on facebook!!! i was on my phone and i seen that this girl named Elena Pravi wanted to be friends with me. so i accepted not thinking anything really of it.. well, she wrote me on there, asking if Peter Prav was my dad and i'm like yea, and asking if we might be related. and she also sent a picture of my dad that is a spitting image of my brother dino! and sure enough, she is my first cousin on my dad's side!!! her son found me on facebook. so now i have another cousin and a nephew, and my uncles and aunt are still alive. unfortunately, my grandfather isn't though. which i knew, cuz its been so many years since we've talked or had any kind of contact. not since my dad died in 91 when my uncles flew my dad down to Greece to be buried.
So its nice to know that i have another cousin :) she keeps sending me little things in Greek and telling me how happy she is.. which i am too.. :)
But i'm out.. going to go watch a movie and eat some popcorn...
Laney
